Make it Stop!

Make it stop.  make it stop... make it stop.

I'm so over this.  I'm done.  You're gone. 

Pain. Pain. Pain.

Okay.  What would be the best most healthy approach to this?  What would my Doctor tell me to do so I can get over this for once and for all and not have this burden all over myself.  I need to get healthy.  I am just so damn messed up in the head and body that I am no longer healthy.  Sometimes I wonder if I hit the PEAK OF PAIN!  Could more pain be out there for my little heart.  Could there be more.  You are gone, what is my next step.  I wasn't ready to be alone. 

Without you

I have to start the new year without you. 

Just like that, you are dead.  I don't have you in my life.  You are gone. I'm so lost. 

You're not in my life.  I was on such a healthy path and You messed up my world.  How do I go forward?