Monday, November 24, 2014

The laundry is in need of a cleaning

Great day to be at the Laundromat, but for a place that is supposed to make all of my clothes sparkly clean, this place is dirty.  I see remnants of hair, soiled belongings, food, and a smokers cig butt on the floor.  When you want to be clean, you want the place you get clean, to be clean.  Is that too much to ask? 

Clean = good.  Trying to get clean when its dirty = gross. 


I think I like CLEAN clothes.  Please mop the floors.  Hmm, I wonder about the buttons I just pushed.  That's another manic topic for me.  Jeepers.

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Starting new

When things get to be so difficult you have to start new and start over and stop being reliant on your past.  But sometimes there is something haunting you from your past, a mistake you made that makes it hard to move on.  I will move on.  I will move on.  My motivation has dropped to a record low and now it is starting to affect my health.  Why am I letting it affect my health?  I have no idea, but I did let it affect my health.  I created this destructive problem and now it is time to fix it.

Have you ever had a problem so big, you didn't know how to fix it?

Have you ever had a problem that affect YOUR HEALTH?

Have you ever needed to find a new path in life, to get away from the past?

Well, that is me.  Help me move it.  This is ok. This is ok.  This is ok.

Friday, November 14, 2014

Detective work

The solution to any good problem can be determined by figuring out what that problem is!  So, if the focus is to regain my health and get over this, I need to know why I am having so many unhealthy thoughts and action, and put myself back together before anyone else realizes I have fallen to pieces.  What is the real problem here with my obsession. 

Quote from my lesson this week,
“The formulation of the problem is often more essential than its solution, which may be merely a matter of mathematical or experimental skill.” Einstein

nutrition cycling

Monday, November 10, 2014

Number 2! Ughhhh, I give up.

I am so done with this day.  Talking my break and going to get out of here and skip for rest of the day.  Cheerio peoples, my day is improving already because something more fun just called.  (Action #1 - I did something for myself.)  Big step.  Big step.  First step of many.

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Why Reflections?

So why is this titled "Reflections"? 

To keep track of my emotions and feelings and see if I can find a pattern.  I have been told that keeping a diary is a great way to figure out behavior, and I need to survive the next few months.  This is going to help me release those old feelings, so I guess that should be the goal to change the title to "Release" when I let go of my troubled past.  This better work!  Love, Annie G (no relationship to Kenny G, promised).

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

bad weather

It's a weather duet!   I am under the weather and its bad weather outside.  So would this make a good day for another haiku. 

Outside is so grey
Inside reminds me of you
Raindrops wash it away
by: Anne Guzman

Oh, my past romance.  He was in my dreams about last night.  I miss him.  Raindrops are my tears.  Grey is because we are not together.  And yikers my heart pounds for him.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Suds and Spuds

A few too many local brews and chips last night at the pub, but no headache this morning.  Can't believe I have been dealing with my fears for so long.   I have been so scared of the unknown.  Now facing my fears head on.  Making changes.  Switching things up.  No more fear of the unknown.  This is my start to scrub my past and work on new healthy relationships.  Plus it is healthy to remove the bad thoughts and start to my alcohol free week with friends to raise awareness in our district. 

Focus on myself.  I need to heal. No one should be scared all the time.  I hope I can find myself by reflection. But me, I am tough.  I can eat this challenge for breakfast!  I'm up for it.  I have to get this monster out of my closet.