Thursday, June 25, 2015


After all that sadness and all that change I finally smile every day!!!  We all deal with grief differently in our own insides of brain workings. 

And it is sold!  This is great.  $$  So happy ever after.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

forever change

something happened that will never allow me to be the same again.  everything is now different. 

I wish that day never happened.

Thursday, June 4, 2015

Post death post

So, this might be my first normal post-death post.  In reviewing the past few months it is quite a rather impressive change.

First there was hurt. Then there was pain. And more pain.  Pain.  The reality squeezed into my life.

You are there, but in a different.  Not like I thought.  You are only a memory.

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

its time to move on

I might not be around much longer, its time to move on for good since your gone now.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

The Worst Parts of Me

The Worst Parts Of Me

Im a little out of tune
Im havin trouble inside
Cant explain the chayos 
that I feel tonight
Everythings a mess
I can barely breathe
And your wonderin wonderin 
When I stopped bein me
I couldnt tell you the truth
I couldnt lie to you 

Im a little out of control
I swear Its not my fault
I try and I try 
But nothin seems to work
Gotta break me down
Gotta take away this diesese
Its like im addicted 
To the worst parts of me

And inside I am filled to the brim
No one can see how hurt I am 
So confused by all these things
So abused by my own creating
Somethings wrong inside my head 
and I feel, I feel, almost dead.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Ready to move

Tonight is moving night.  DANCE LESSONS.

Trying something I would normally never do.  Ever. 

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

second chances

The cycling of ups and downs, and ups and downs.  Does anyone deserve a second chance?  Are there an exception to when you should allow someone to treat you with poorest of intentions.

For weighing those thoughts, I do now give this:

Our thoughts can weigh heavily on the intentions of others. Their actions sometimes hide the true intent inside. It is this that bewilders the soul, and causes heartache where heartache is not due. We can wrap ourselves in thoughts of rejection and embarrassment only to overshadow the true beauty of it all.

The heartache is there for a reason. The love may be brief but it is still that wondrous emotion that can set the heart alight. Embrace this every chance you get. Live carefree for those few moments and know that you have grown from this experience. Whether it amounts to a lifetime of happiness or just a few fleeting moments.

Give in to this feeling, and sow it everywhere you go. It is in this that we unlock the eternal gates and flock to the forefront of compassion. For it is in compassion that true happiness resides.