Friday, November 14, 2014

Detective work

The solution to any good problem can be determined by figuring out what that problem is!  So, if the focus is to regain my health and get over this, I need to know why I am having so many unhealthy thoughts and action, and put myself back together before anyone else realizes I have fallen to pieces.  What is the real problem here with my obsession. 

Quote from my lesson this week,
“The formulation of the problem is often more essential than its solution, which may be merely a matter of mathematical or experimental skill.” Einstein

Monday, November 10, 2014

Number 2! Ughhhh, I give up.

I am so done with this day.  Talking my break and going to get out of here and skip for rest of the day.  Cheerio peoples, my day is improving already because something more fun just called.  (Action #1 - I did something for myself.)  Big step.  Big step.  First step of many.

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Why Reflections?

So why is this titled "Reflections"? 

To keep track of my emotions and feelings and see if I can find a pattern.  I have been told that keeping a diary is a great way to figure out behavior, and I need to survive the next few months.  This is going to help me release those old feelings, so I guess that should be the goal to change the title to "Release" when I let go of my troubled past.  This better work!

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

bad weather

It's a weather duet!   I am under the weather and its bad weather outside.  So would this make a good day for another haiku. 

Outside is so grey
Inside reminds me of you
Raindrops wash it away

Oh, my past romance.  He was in my dreams about last night.  I miss him.  Raindrops are my tears.  Grey is because we are not together.  And yikers my heart pounds for him.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Suds and Spuds

A few too many local brews and chips last night at the pub, but no headache this morning.  Can't believe I have been dealing with my fears for so long.   I have been so scared of the unknown.  Now facing my fears head on.  Making changes.  Switching things up.  No more fear of the unknown.  This is my start to scrub my past and work on new healthy relationships.  Plus it is healthy to remove the bad thoughts and start to my alcohol free week with friends to raise awareness in our district. 

Focus on myself.  I need to heal. No one should be scared all the time.  I hope I can find myself by reflection. But me, I am tough.  I can eat this challenge for breakfast!  I'm up for it.  I have to get this monster out of my closet.

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Nourishment for my Soul

So today is day one for nourishment of my soul... and today I get my new tattoo!  The meaning of this new symbol in my life is acceptance of optimal health. Better yet I get to see it every day.  Breathe life into your body and envision it as the healthy temple it is intended to be.  See yourself as a thriving being. 


Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Working on my struggles.

Does this work?  Is this me?  What did I get myself into.  This is normal.  This is normal.  This is normal.  Ok. Does this seem healthy for my body and soul.  I am going to find out.

Today, does not feel normal.  But what is every day supposed to feel like?  Why does every day have to be idyllic.  Or perfect.  I'm not perfect, but ok the way I am right now.  Ok.  Why do I have to struggle.  What is this struggle teaching me.