Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Make it Stop!

Make it stop.  make it stop... make it stop.

I'm so over this.  I'm done.  You're gone. 

Pain. Pain. Pain.

Okay.  What would be the best most healthy approach to this?  What would my Doctor tell me to do so I can get over this for once and for all and not have this burden all over myself.  I need to get healthy.  I am just so damn messed up in the head and body that I am no longer healthy.  Sometimes I wonder if I hit the PEAK OF PAIN!  Could more pain be out there for my little heart.  Could there be more.  You are gone, what is my next step.  I wasn't ready to be alone. 

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Without you

I have to start the new year without you. 

Just like that, you are dead.  I don't have you in my life.  You are gone. I'm so lost. 

You're not in my life.  I was on such a healthy path and You messed up my world.  How do I go forward?

Monday, December 15, 2014

You're gone. You're really gone.

You're gone.  You're really gone. 

I don't know what to say.  I don't know if I miss you.  I don't know what it is like to not have you in my life.  Is this good?  Is this bad? 

We are apart now.

Am I lost?  Am I found?

You are not in my life.  I am on a path without you.

It happened.

You're gone. 

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Good bye

Last night I said good-bye to an old friend.  It was hard, but easy. 

Time to leave that path we walked together, and for me to start a new journey without you. I will miss you, and everything you taught me. 


Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Hello there lone keyboard

Seems as though my keyboard wasn't working, by that I really mean my computer broke and I tried to replace it but it was more than I was expecting and I finally purchased a new computer.  Oh and my new computer I really mean a hip laptop.  Love color. 

How could I pass up a day like today to journal my feelings and let it all come out.  For that is today, good feeling.  Good luck.  And good fortune.  Overall, I have to say that is good.  But since I was up late last night, it is almost time for a brief nap.  Hello pillow.  Then hello coffee.